Nobody wakes up wanting to fail.

But I failed myself long before life ever failed me.

I traded purpose for popularity. Discipline for attention. And by the time fatherhood found me, I was still thinking like a boy.

If I could sit across from my teenage self, I would see a version of me who thought he knew everything. However, he really understood nothing. I wouldn’t start with anger.

I’d start with the truth.

I would say this:

Learn how to think critically for yourself.

Because that’s where everything went wrong. This kept me from what I wanted to do in the future. I always visioned of starting my own business. These decisions were not directing me towards that goal.

Following Instead of Leading Myself

In high school, I didn’t even go to the school I was zoned for. I followed my friends. I used their address just to stay in a place where I felt comfortable.

At the time, it didn’t feel like a big decision. It felt safe. I didn’t want to start over. I didn’t want to walk into a new school alone. Being around my friends meant I didn’t have to face change. I didn’t have to feel uncomfortable.

But looking back, that was the first time I chose acceptance over alignment.

That was the first time I made a life decision based on other people.

I didn’t care about grades.
I didn’t care about growth.
I cared about being cool.

I cared about fitting in.
I cared about how I looked.
I cared about what people thought of me.

And that mindset cost me more than I knew at the time.

I got kicked out of three different high schools.
I ended up in disciplinary school multiple times.

The crazy part? I was smart. I knew I wasn’t average. I guess I needed a little motivation.

Being intelligent and being disciplined are not the same thing.

I wasn’t grounded. I was looking outward for validation instead of inward for direction.

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When You Lose Yourself Trying to Be Accepted

Before I met a certain girl, I was a good student.

After that, everything shifted.

When you’re young, you think:
What damage can a girl really do to my life?

In high school, it felt harmless. It felt exciting. It felt grown. It felt like I was stepping into adulthood.

But after high school? That’s when reality showed up.

I had my first child without being married. Without understanding the weight of that responsibility. I wasn’t thinking long-term. I wasn’t thinking at all.

Suddenly, the small decisions didn’t feel small anymore.

But here’s the truth that took me years to admit:

It wasn’t her fault.

It was mine.

I didn’t love myself or know my identity.
I didn’t understand the consequences.
I reacted to emotions.

I confused attention with connection.
I confused lust with love.
I was confused about being chosen and being valuable.

And that confusion shaped my life.

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Everyone Is an Individual

One of the hardest truths I had to learn is this:

Everyone is an individual. Even your closest friends. Even your family.

Nobody can live your life for you.
Nobody can carry your consequences for you.
Nobody can think for you.

You cannot build your identity on friends.
You cannot build your future on relationships.
You cannot build your worth on popularity.

Every person has to learn how to love themselves.

And that lesson cost me a lot.

It cost me years of figuring myself out the hard way.

But it also gave me something priceless, the awareness I have today.

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Critical Thinking Is Self-Respect

Looking back, I realize nobody taught me what critical thinking actually was. I didn’t know what the word meant, and didn’t know what it was. I was never told how powerful it was in life.

But I learned it through struggles which they are susceptible throughout life.

Critical thinking isn’t just about passing tests.

It’s asking yourself:

Why am I doing this?

Is this helping my future or hurting it?

Am I choosing this because I want this, or because I want approval?

When you don’t think critically, you live on impulse.

You let other people design your life.
When you don’t think critically, you chase moments and lose years.

I wasn’t dumb.

I just wasn’t disciplined in my thinking.

There is a painful difference. It lies between having no respect or boundaries for yourself and allowing people to manipulate you into concrete decisions.

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Loving Yourself Changes Everything

The biggest shift in my life didn’t come from being embarrassed.
It didn’t come from being judged.
It didn’t even come from failing.

It came when I finally had to sit alone with myself and take responsibility.

No excuses.
No blaming.
No pointing fingers.

Just ownership.

Loving yourself isn’t motivational, and isn’t ego.

Loving yourself means:

Making decisions that protect your future.

Walking away from situations that weaken you.

Being okay with leading your own life.

Teenage me thought being cool was more important.

Adult me knows self-control is power. Deciding who to detach from or resist and be more assertive for your benefit.

Teenage me thought attention meant respect.

Adult me knows discipline earns respect.

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If I Could Say One Thing

If I could look that young version of me in the eyes, I wouldn’t shame him.

I’d tell him this:

You are smart. You need to slow down and think.

Not every opportunity is a blessing.
Not every relationship is meant for you.
Not every friend is a guide.

And not every feeling deserves a decision.

Learn yourself.

Love yourself.

Think for yourself.

Once you do that, nobody can lead you somewhere you don’t belong.

And that’s how a boy who followed the crowd
becomes a man who leads himself.

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